I had a vision one day and I believe God showed this to me so I could really comprehend what our repentance and His forgiveness really looks like. I was standing at this huge chalkboard writing down all my sins. The chalkboard was so filled, I barely had space to write after awhile. I kept talking to Jesus who was standing a few feet away; I didn’t see His face but I felt His peaceful presence and saw His silhouette. I was telling Jesus about each sin, pointing at them as I talked (as if it was news to Him or something). Then suddenly the roles switched. Jesus was standing at the chalkboard and I was standing a few feet away looking at the board. Jesus with his face toward the chalkboard, glanced at the board and then picked up the eraser. Without uttering a single word, He begin to erase the chalkboard until it was spotless and there was nothing left. It was just a regular eraser but he must have did an anointed wiping, because it was shiny after he erased it, kind of like it looks when we wipe a chalkboard with a wet cloth. But after He erased it, I felt a peace come over me. Then the scripture came to my mind from 1 John 1:9,
“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”
It was like God was saying, “HELLOOOOO, stop talking about all that stuff I already forgave you for and forgot about. Can we move on please?” I was keeping myself in a jail cell that He already unlocked so I could be set free. Nonsense, right! I didn’t need to keep apologizing to Him, carrying guilt, and feeling condemned; I needed to let it go. If He, God Almighty, could forgive me I should be able to forgive myself. But I had such a hard time believing it could be that easy until he revealed that to me through a chalkboard. He set me free, purified me, and gave me a clean slate. I thank God for what He showed me that day, because I remember that chalkboard when I mess up, and go before Him in repentance. I imagine that same scene. Jesus standing at the chalkboard holding that eraser, and as soon as I repent of that sin He starts erasing it and there’s no trace of it ever being there. And as soon as the enemy starts throwing those darts of guilt and shame, I can say without a doubt, “Sorry, but God already wiped that away; my slate is clean! that guilt trip you’re trying to cause me to have, it’s not going to work.” Friends, if you are carrying guilt and shame like I was, I encourage you to give it to God. Don’t live another day weighed down with baggage He wants to set you free from!
Be blessed loved ones, and let go so God can do a heavenly cleaning of your “chalkboard”!